I've wanted to post here for awhile now but thought people would look down on me for undergoing a rhinoplasty.

My story: I had a gigantic arab nose (I'm arab) and all my fucking life girls have expressed disgust when just looking at me. I could be in class and girls would walk right past me and "eww lol" me every now and then for no reason. I was just this nice quiet kid sitting in the back of the class sleeping. Once I got to college I had no friends, the ugliest fucking whales said I was ugly behind my back (I wasn't attracted to them anyways so lol?) AND I was failing my classes hard. All of this caused me to drop out and isolate myself with my depression for 2 years without going outside (watched twitch and played videogames lol). This really didn't help as it lead me to to have suicidal thoughts thinking "wow 2 years went by and I still can't even look at people in the eyes/stutter when I talk to them, life will never get better for me". Oh yeah, forgot to mention looking at myself in the mirror has alaways been a struggle for me to just accept that I'm really fucking hideous, even the my own mom told me that since I'm ugly I'll find my own ugly wifey lul. I was also fat btw sorry for not mentioning it earlier.

The fact that I was ugly didn't only impact how women view me sexually, but it also impacted how grown women valued my existence as I began to work canadian minimum wage. I worked in a fucking mcdonald's for 4 months straight just so that I could pay 8100$ for a rhinoplasty! 4 fucking months of waking up every day like "woah I'm about to go flip some burgers and clean that toilet no1 wants to clean but it'll be worth it once I get my nose job my life will change drastically so I shouldn't kill myself and give upjust yet".

After rhinoplasty: I finally got my nose job and it fixed my entire facial proportions, the surgeon I saw even admitted that most people don't need nose jobs but that he does plastic surgery to help ppl like me. It's still big and swollen my it's a million times better than before as I never intended to aim for anything unrealistic. I CAN FINALLY LOOK IN THE MIRROR AND FIND MYSELF PRETTY LIKE I FUCKING CRIED BECAUSE THANK GOD THIS CHAPTER OF MY LIFE IS FUCKING OVER. I NO LONGER HATE MYSELF AND FEEL LIKE A SUBHUMAN YESSS. ON TOP OF THAT I LOST 45 POUNDS (went from 5'9 180 to 135 skinny) I counted calories, replaced drinks with water and ate 1200 to 1500 calories a day.

Many of us incels actually fucking hate ourselves and have insanely low self esteem and I really apologize for bragging about my newfound self worth. I regret wanting to kill myself because it was entirely due to how much I hated myself and my life. All that to say that we shouldn't be so hard on ourselves and view ourselves negatively, this is the worse mental torture and earth and it resides entirely in our head :(. I'm really happy to say that I'll be going back to university to study computer science in September!

VIRGINITY LOSS: With my weight loss and my face I'm a solid 8/10 for women who don't hate arab features! After my rhinoplasty recovery I got enough courage to get a job at a drugstore where I found my gf. She's a 10/10 face but a little THICC/chubby who is about to go to law school. She's been dicked down by 8 dudes before me which qualifies her as a slut in my eyes but fuck it I'm a rare case. She's the reformed high school bitch white girl type who gained a few pounds after and complements me all the time about not being a fuckboy. I lowkey laugh at those complements cuz that just means she's a thottie who got played by a bunch of chads out of her league and decided to settle with me. LOSING MY VIRGINITY WAS A DELIVERANCE TO STOP OBSESSING OVER SEX AND GAIN SELF CONFIDENCE. It made me understand how good sex actually is and how vital expressing my sexuality is to me cuz it's a basic need. But it is by no means should be the center of my fucking life like it used to and I feel that with this basic need fulfilled, I can accomplish so much more with my fucking life like going back to university!

Having lost my virginity legit makes me want to hit the gym and better my physical appearance in order to make it easier for me to fulfill this insatiable need to get laid and i REALLY REGRET not having done so sooner. I can say that every time I hit the gym (it's been 1 month and I can see the results) I feel so much better about myself and my confidence grows even if I have a gf. Working out is pretty therapeutic and I really recommend it to every1 of us!

NOTES: - There's this rule that states that in 99% of relationships the guy must be better looking than the girl and I think that's factual as I'm better looking than my SO because she's a cute girl she could get literally any chad to unzip his pants for her. - That's why I'm working on bettering myself physically cuz once I get back to university I'm love to fuck anything that moves since I've been a virgin for so long lol (YES EVEN THOUGH I HAVE A GF). - For all of us, I think it's not about chasing women and cold appreaching them trying to pick them up, I think it's about putting work in bettering the conditions to attract women (career, lifting, fashion, diet, nose job :/). - My biggest victory is my mental state, I'm so sorry to be bragging about this shit to you guys cuz I know some of us are really depressed but I'm so fucking happy nowadays. I almost entirely got rid of my social anxiety/autism and finally have a good outlook on life. I'm so fucking proud of having worked 4 and a half months at a dead end fucking McDonald's while sucking the pain in. Like I really spent 8hours of my day every fucking day flipping fucking burgers thinking it would never get better than this. 8 hours is an insanely long time flipping burgers it may seem like just a day job but it's actually physically/mechanically demanding. - Also, I fucking hate beta fags who orbit around average ass women making it hard for decent looking guys to get to them because they expect us to be as nice as those fags lol - I didn't tell my gf about my nose job, I never fucking will and she really doesn't know anything about what I went through because opening up to a girl who has a ton of reach with men will make me unattractive in her eyes. I don't have to open up to her to feel loved by her! I just told her that "i worked in a mcdonald's to pay off my student loan hahaa" - Right now I'm entirely dedicated to loving myself and being self sufficient because my gf loving me doesn't change anything for me, it just gives me essential validation.

SORRY FOR TYPING LIKE A RETARD IM NOT A POET BUT I LOVE U GUYS GOING THRU THE SAME SHIT YO